3am Thoughts..
So after coming back from Azaadi (Independence Day) celebrations with my family, I felt like taking out my harmonium after almost 2 weeks. Due to various cultural reasons, I was forbidden to take Eastern vocal classes with my music instructor at home. And the reason why I'm playing it again is because I have a plan to meet these recent additions to my friends Zara and Zaira. I might see them at Canal Ghar around 2 p.m. It's not noticeable that I'm going out, the noticeable thing is that I wanted to polish my sound better. It is very hard for me to find intrinsic motivation for many things. Yes, people tell me I have an amazing career and bright future (Inshalla) - but most of it was for the sake of achieving something or being someone bigger or better. I'm playing the harmonium tonight because I want to sing better for Zara and Zaira. The way they appreciated me and Saeed in the Bistro rooftop cafe, where I first met them. It made me cry. No one could see, but I was ...